just sitting.

taking a rest to think and ponder

and knit. 

just sitting. 

thinking about the golden hour fading fast, 

and french. 

and how i should go outside soon and just 

enjoy the weather with a cup

of tea and 

a comfy sweatshirt. 

listening to imagined guitar strings. 

a new tune seems to waft through

my brain. 

i want to

write it down. 

but i force myself to 

just sit. 

i need to not rush. 

i hum in my mind so i do not forget

the simple melody 

which

means so much 

to me

already. 

whimsy. 

i've been feeling 

shy lately. 

i blush easily in large groups

of people i don't know as well. 

and have the most wonderful

times

with my small circle i love so dearly. 

i need to laugh more. 

i smile. 

but laughter- 

i need to laugh 

so much more. 

i cry too easily. 

but good cries- 

i know those

well. Jesus has been doing

so much 

in my heart.                                                      i don't know what i would do without Him. 

i love being creative.

but i need to

pull out my camera more often. 

and take advantage of the sunrise. 

i'm still sitting. 

j'adore. tu adore. nous adore. 

hmmm. 

*deep breath*

roasted brown potatoes. 

i just dropped a stitch. 

i'm thinking with my hands

now. 

it is hard

to sit still

unless i have something to 

do with my hands

which may or may

not

be a good thing. 

i should be

just sitting. 

thinking. 

pondering. 

listening. 

remembering. 

cherishing. 

focus. 

i think i'll go outside now.