-look me in the eye-

October 30, 2014 Sierra McKenzie

"A man does not always say to himself, 'Hullo! I'm growing up.' It is often only when he looks back that he realises what has happened and recognises it as what people call 'growing up.' You can see it even in simple matters. A man who starts anxiously watching to see whether he is going to sleep is very likely to remain wide awake. As well, the thing I am talking of now may not happen to everyone in a sudden flash--as it did to St Paul or Bunyan: it may be so gradual that no one could ever point to a particular hour or even a particular year. And what matters it the nature of the change in itself, not how we feel while it is happening. It is the change from being confident about our own efforts to the state in which we despair of doing anything for ourselves and leave it to God.
I know the words 'leave it to God' can be misunderstood, but they must stay for a moment. The sense in which a Christian leaves it to God is that he puts all his trust in Christ: trusts that Christ will somehow share with him the perfect human obedience which He carried out from His birth to His crucifixion: that Christ will make the man more like Himself and, in a sense, make good his deficiencies."

MERE CHRISTIANITY / C.S. LEWIS

So what I ask at this moment is this: what am i doing right now that requires such faith? Discussing the word brave with my family the other evening, I touched on what that specifically meant to me in the past few weeks even (while also touching on my reasons for the word I'm thinking of for my word of 2015): to live in the realm of uncertainty, while still taking hold of the opportunities given to us in a most ordinary manner for the glory of God. Let me simplify: to put all trust in God (trusting that Christ will give me a spirit of joy in submissiveness and obedience), knowing that He knows, and I do not. In yet other words... if I am given opportunities in the here and now, as mundane and unfaithful as they may seem in calling (as low as making all the beds and washing all the floors, or as wonderful as teaching all my kidlet friends), then I need to take them and know that they are for His glory! Just thoughts. But prayers for faithfulness and joy in this season are a must. Running around a field this morning near a local church, I just had to sing and shout: Oh, He is faithful!

"Look Me in the eye, My child. Look at what I've given to you. Trust.

can you see Me?"