Sierra Mackenzie

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Abandon. || My One Word

This year my one word was "more." Remembering this word reminded me to really get going. It reminded me that there's so much more to life than what the world makes appealing; it reminded me to look beyond the sky and remember that there is more than meets the eye. I remembered that Jesus is more than enough.
I looked back in my journal, and found this: " More," because, so often, I re-make G-d into, not G-d, but the same man by which promises are broken, thoughts are distorted, and lives are intertwined with something resembling something half as dramatic as a soap opera. 
I forget He is the author and perfecter; and that what He wills happens, whether it seems like it will or no. He want me to live a life of meaning, one that can only be achieved by remembering that there is so much more to G-d that I don't understand. And the rationale that I have is terrible when in fact, I have the love and grace of a Father who wants to bless His children with more beyond our wildest dreams. So goodbye to the old me of 2012 and past years, who dreamed big, but not big enough, scarcely hoping that would change things. 
This is the G-d who will not only meet our expectations and prayers, but will bring them to light in every possible, wild, crazy, passionate, wonderful way.  I am ready to do so much more for His kingdom, and live His life for me every step of the way. 

2012 had its own word, too: abide (though I didn't elaborate on my choice at all). "He who abides in Me shall bear much fruit; apart from Me you can do nothing." 
...i can do nothing. 
All is of Him. Everything is by grace. Each thought, each word spoken. My reasoning behind choosing this word among the myriad of others that I could have selected was simply this: If I desire to reflect Jesus, I must abide in Him. Otherwise I'm but a shadow of who I was created to be.

And 2011, I lived by be. Just taking in each moment and thanking G-d for each breath.

This year... my word is simple. Based off of this post, 2014 will be the year of abandon.

Abandon.

Abandon. Because He is enough. Actually, Abandon and Enough were my "tossup" words. I am by no means good enough- I never will be. With Him, I can move mountains. My inner voice often says that there's no way I could do this; and I'm learning to surrender all- including this little voice, and realize that though I haven't been "there", He has. And He is enough. However, I chose Abandon because I'm consistently learning the lesson of surrender. Each day, each hour, each minute. My heart is leaning more and more into the mission field- as in, looking at everything as a mission. Through this, I desire to live with abandon.
G-d is an on-time G-d. 
Never early. 
Never late. He is our provider, and He will come through. He is faithful. And I cannot experience His full grace as a provider unless I live with abandon and trust. 
For far too long (the earlier of my teen years) my identity was found in others.
How they treated me. How they felt about me. 
I based too much of my confidence and emotion in those feelings. I desire to put my identity in Christ alone.
To {live} would be an adventure. 
And so. This is my word. To live for my Jesus with abandon. 

What's yours? 



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“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.” 2 Corinthians 5:17


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